Persimmon Almond Bars

My birthday was yesterday. Another year wiser, so they say, and I think it's true. Last birthday, I was feeling a bit panicky, unsure of the future, unsure of myself. I was happy, but unsettled, and I could feel all of the energy inside of me spinning in a circle. This year, that fog seemed to lift as I gained clarity, and I'm more excited about what's to come. All of that energy is now being channeled into things I feel good about, things I feel proud of. I'm still a work in progress (aren't we all?), but I really feel that progress. Some days it's the teeniest tiniest of baby steps, like when I choose not to get angry at the person who cuts me off in traffic, and other days, it's amazing shifts, like when I realize that the person who I was envious of is actually a sweetheart who I should get to know more.

I'm learning to recognize when I've done something better than I may have done in the past, and acknowledge it. I take that small victory, celebrate it, and then move on to the next thing with even more vigor, more confidence, and more presence. The future is still looking a little bit up in the air, but rather than leaving it to chance or being shy about what I really want, I am embracing opportunities and paving my way. Only then can I make the positive impact I want to make on those around me. Only then can I live with no regrets. If I didn't take control, who would? 

What do these bars have to do with any of that? Nothing really, except that they served as my birthday cake until my husband came home and we celebrated with real cake. If you know me, I'm not much of a baker. I prefer savory over sweet at home, but I always make room for a good dessert when we go out. So where did I get it in me to finally bake something? I bought too many persimmons. I got excited at the store when I saw they were on sale, and I couldn't contain my greedy little fingers from filling my basket. I didn't even know what I was going to do with them, but I knew their season isn't long. So I bought them, and then had to figure out what to do with them other than just eat them plain. As delicious as they are plain, I knew they would look beautiful baked into something. I consulted my cookbooks and blogs for ideas and found Amy Chaplin's beautiful Apple Almond Slice in her book, At Home in the Whole Foods Kitchen.

I love her book- for it's pictures, it's recipe inspiration, and her wealth of knowledge. I also trust her cooking. I decided to give her recipe a try, modifying it with ingreidnets I had on hand and what I thought would go wel with persimmons. The almond flavor is robust, so for all of those marzipan lovers, you'll love this. I subbed cornmeal because I love the almost savory flavor it lends and how it marries with the maple and persimmon so beautifully. The texture is bit crumbly due to the almond meal and cornmeal, but I love it against the sillky smooth fruit. Coconut oil and slight floral essence of the persimmons creates a magical flavor that I find addicting but light. A dollop of whipped coconut cream and you're all set.

These make lovely treats for the holidays, especially since they showcase a unique winter fruit. Plus, they're super easy. The beginner baker in me wouldn't have it any other way.

Persimmon Almond Bars

¾ cup rolled oats
1 cup almond meal
¼ cup finely ground cornmeal
¾ teaspoons baking powder
Pinch of salt
1 egg, beaten (or 1 flax egg if vegan**)
¼ cup coconut oil, melted
¼ teaspoon pure almond extract
1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
⅓ cup pure maple syrup + ½ tablespoon, divided
1 medium Hachiya (more oblong) or 2 Fuyu (more squat) persimmons, sliced in ¼ inch rounds.
Coconut whipped cream, for serving (optional)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit. Lightly oil a 9x5-inch loaf pan with coconut oil and line with parchment paper so that it overhangs on the shorter ends (you’ll use this to help lift it out of the pan later).
In a food processor, process oats until finely ground, about 30 seconds. Add almond meal, cornmeal, baking powder, and pinch of salt, and pulse 10 seconds to combine.

In a small bowl, whisk egg until well-beaten and no longer stringy. Add in melted coconut oil, extracts, and maple syrup. Stir to combine. Add dry ingredients to wet, and stir until well-mixed. Mixture will resemble a shortbread batter of sorts. Lightly press batter into prepared loaf pan to an even thickness and bake for 15 minutes. Remove pan from oven and overlap persimmon slices atop the batter, lightly pressing down so as not to squish the persimmons. Brush persimmons lightly with 1 tablespoon maple syrup. Return to oven and bake for another 20-25 minutes or until edges are golden brown.

Remove from oven and allow to cool for 10 minutes. Using parchment handles, carefully lift bars from pan and remove to baking rack to allow to cool completely. Place on cutting board to cut into eight squares. Serve with a dollop of whipped coconut cream. Bars can be stored in container in the refrigerator for 5 days. Makes 8 squares.

**To make flax egg: Stir 3 tablespoons water with 1 tablespoon ground flaxseed and allow to rest for 15 minutes

30 + Chocolate and Hazelnut Tin Can Cake

Just a few months ago, I was cleaning out my closet with my sister, and I pulled out this cute little black dress. It was made of a soft and stretchy material and had a flowy little skirt. Minus the little skirt, it was a pretty conservative number with short sleeves and a crew neck that covered even my collar bones, so I was a bit surprised by my sister's reaction when I held it up to her. I expected her to ooh and ahh at how cute the dress was, ask me where I got it, and do that whole girly thing, but instead what I got was, "You're too old for that." I stuffed the dress back into the closet, lost total interest in going through the rest of my clothes, and wondered what else was I too old for. 

I sulked about my twenty-nine years for about two weeks after that, thought about how I should have been more established in my career by now, about how I should have been more adventurous in my twenties, about how I should have worn that little black dress more times than I did when I was still "young," still allowed. I went on this downward spiral of feeling sorry for myself, about those lost opportunities, about the shoulda-woulda-couldas. I know, I was being a bit dramatic, but my sister's comment stung. I know she did not mean it to be so harsh, but I took it way more personally, probably because I was a bit sensitive about getting older anyway, about entering another decade and dealing with the expectations of what someone in his or her thirties does and does not do.

I finally snapped out of my little self-pity phase. When my 30th birthday finally rolled around earlier this week, I was ready to celebrate not the old shoulda-woulda-couldas, but the shall, will, and can do's. My twenties brought some pretty exciting experiences in my life, all for which I am grateful, but I am making sure that my thirties top it.

No more pity party over here, just this delicious little chocolate and hazelnut cake.

Before getting to the recipe, I have to say that my family is always so wonderful about celebrating my birthday over Thanksgiving. For the past few years, they have gotten me one of those super-addicting cookie cakes from the Great American Company, and each and every year, it somehow gets destroyed. One year it was dropped, another year, it somehow got folded up like a cookie taco by the time it made it home, and this year, my little sister's new dog "who never eats food off of the counter," licked half of the icing off of the cake. Unfortunate, but silly events, and I am grateful for a family that goes through the trouble of celebrating my birthday when we can all be together.

Now onto this cake! I wanted to make a little cake because there are only two of us at home, but also because just how cute is this?! This was inspired by a mix of recipes from around the web, but I picked chocolate and hazelnut because 1) I love chocolate and hazelnut (see these truffles) and 2) I wanted a fancy combo to ring in this new decade.

The tin can bit was inspired by a cake at the Domestic Goddess. I adapted the batter from a Mini One Bowl Yellow Cake at The Cake Merchant but made some changes in the prep and used coconut sugar to give it a richer, caramel flavor. The icing is my own creation.

Chocolate and Hazelnut Tin Can Cake

Cake:
1/2 cup plus 1 tablespoon whole wheat pastry flour
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 1/2 tablespoons unsalted butter, softened
1/3 cup coconut sugar
3 tablespoons kefir or buttermilk
1 large egg
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

Frosting:
1/4 cup unsalted butter, softened
1/2- 3/4 cup coconut sugar (or powdered sugar for a smoother frosting)
3 tablespoons nutella or other chocolate hazelnut spread
2 teaspoons cocoa powder
1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
1 cup chopped toasted hazelnuts (skins removed after toasting)

For the cake, preheat oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit. Grease a clean 28 ounce tin can and line bottom and sides with parchment paper.

In a bowl, whisk together flour, baking powder, and salt. In a separate bowl, beat the butter and sugar until light and fluffy with an electric mixer. Add kefir or buttermilk, egg, and vanilla, and beat for about a minute or until well combined. Slowly sprinkle in flour mixture. and beat for 45 seconds or until mixture is smooth, scraping down the sides often.

Pour batter into prepared tin can, bang can on counter to get out any air bubbles, and bake for 35-45 minutes or until toothpick poked into center comes out clean. Cool on wire rack for 15 minutes. Remove from can and allow to cool completely.

Meanwhile, prepare frosting. Cream butter and sugar together until light and fluffy. Start with 1/2 cup sugar and add more sugar to taste. Beat in nutella, cocoa powder, and salt until well combined. Set aside until cake has cooled completely.

To frost cake, remove top rounded portion of cake until top is level. Cut cake into two even layers. Apply an even layer of frosting on the bottom layer (about 1/3 of the frosting), then top with second layer. Apply a thin crumb-coating all over cake, place in fridge for 10 minutes to firm up, and then continue to frost cake with remaining frosting. Press chopped hazelnuts into side of cake. Cake is best eaten the day it is made, but you can store it in the fridge overnight. Enjoy! Makes 1 4-inch two layer cake.